Medication is like that saying about men 'can't live with them, can't live without them'. At the start of Sept I began a new meds plan - and have surfaced in late Oct barely aware of many of the days inbetween. My mood was doing ok with the quetiapine increase but that may have been because I was too spaced out to feel anything much - 'you'll adjust the sedation will wear off'. Expect that it was time to start the Mirtazipine which also knocked me out of it.
Intended as an antidepressant, my first week on M left me over active and driven in the short gaps between dopeyness, so I got stroppy and said I had had enough of being so sedated that I was about as useful as a chocolate teapot more days than not. And worried the M was a problem that was the one agreed to ditch.
I was not going to became a lark against my wiring but it is wonderful to wake up and actually feel awake - even if I still want a lie in and to put off the paperwork.
End result is that I am facing the winter blues kicking in without anti-depressant support until my next appointment, but as I think what I was on the last year and a bit had no benefit to me then I am in the same situation as last year, and somehow survived that. The other result from my stroppyness is that my next appointment has been changed to see the consultant - yes!! I appreciate the need for juniors in a specialism to learn but 3 in 4 appts and each with different views does not give continuity of care.
So maybe by this side of Christmas we may have an informed plan to see me through the winter.
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