The numbness gathers like a fog, slowly, imperceptibly at first. No sudden changes that might attract attention, but a gradual chill that creeps and curls, swirling around limbs, heart, mind. Coiling around in thin strands, then thickening, tightening, until there is nothing but the clammy numbing coldness. Strange how numbness has its own ache.
Yes, I'm overtired and my mood has crashed, been really low all day. Retreating under duvet, it is bedtime anyway, taken couple hours doing this with no concentration span.
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Sunday 20 October 2013
Sunday 6 October 2013
Gabi speaks....
I know, I am usually quiet, not even barking at the doorbell, but this is my chance to say my bit. My human is tired and dozing on the sofa after a busy Bell Day. I call it that because it is the day that has lots of bells, sometimes I join in but my human seems worried about that.
Anyway this Bell Day she didn't leave me to the garden but took me out with her. I was enthusiastic until I realised it was a ride in the car, but it wasn't too long and then we had a walk across the playing fields from the village hall to the big bell church. It was different to the cosy chapels I have been in before and I felt a bit awkward because I was on the short lead and not free to check the place out to be sure it was ok. People stand up but don't go anywhere - very strange, but I have seen it before, usually they are singing but today they stood without singing, and they wandered about a few times - at the beginning with lots of food, then shaking hands (and a few remembered to say hello to me) then they all queued up to go to the far end. My lead didn't allow me to find out why.
The walk back to the village hall was fun, lots of new smells, and then there was food - I did try to encourage people to give me a bit but it wasn't a great success, despite my human having stood up in church and told them about sharing the harvest.
Then back to the car for ages and ages, and another new place. My human left bags in the chapel and we went for a bit of a walk before she started taking to people again - but not as long a walk as she promised having missed a signpost and going the wrong way for ages.
It was another place where the people had left their food everywhere - but frustratingly it was all things I don't like to eat! So I just found the carpet (why only in the middle of the chapel?) and lay down to sleep - once you hear my human talking once it is enough!
Lots of people said hello to me but didn't have any food :-( We got back in the car but on the way home stopped at a place with lots of trees and paths through them to explore. Lots of other dogs too - and at one point I met a springer without a lead and didn't get stressed about it - we just said hello and then each got on with exploring the exciting new smells. My human got very happy about that, and I was quite proud too. I do get worried about other dogs and whether they are going to bully me, but I am trying to be braver.
As a day - well being a church dog I think the term I need is 'a curate's egg', good in parts. I don't like being in the car lots, and church is quite boring, but I did get to walk in new places and sniff lots of new smells which is good.
Gabi
Anyway this Bell Day she didn't leave me to the garden but took me out with her. I was enthusiastic until I realised it was a ride in the car, but it wasn't too long and then we had a walk across the playing fields from the village hall to the big bell church. It was different to the cosy chapels I have been in before and I felt a bit awkward because I was on the short lead and not free to check the place out to be sure it was ok. People stand up but don't go anywhere - very strange, but I have seen it before, usually they are singing but today they stood without singing, and they wandered about a few times - at the beginning with lots of food, then shaking hands (and a few remembered to say hello to me) then they all queued up to go to the far end. My lead didn't allow me to find out why.
The walk back to the village hall was fun, lots of new smells, and then there was food - I did try to encourage people to give me a bit but it wasn't a great success, despite my human having stood up in church and told them about sharing the harvest.
Then back to the car for ages and ages, and another new place. My human left bags in the chapel and we went for a bit of a walk before she started taking to people again - but not as long a walk as she promised having missed a signpost and going the wrong way for ages.
It was another place where the people had left their food everywhere - but frustratingly it was all things I don't like to eat! So I just found the carpet (why only in the middle of the chapel?) and lay down to sleep - once you hear my human talking once it is enough!
Lots of people said hello to me but didn't have any food :-( We got back in the car but on the way home stopped at a place with lots of trees and paths through them to explore. Lots of other dogs too - and at one point I met a springer without a lead and didn't get stressed about it - we just said hello and then each got on with exploring the exciting new smells. My human got very happy about that, and I was quite proud too. I do get worried about other dogs and whether they are going to bully me, but I am trying to be braver.
As a day - well being a church dog I think the term I need is 'a curate's egg', good in parts. I don't like being in the car lots, and church is quite boring, but I did get to walk in new places and sniff lots of new smells which is good.
Gabi
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